My Biggest Fear

My biggest fear was that Ayinde would get sick and end up back in the hospital – the place where he was born. The place where he had to stay in the NICU for 8 weeks and then another 2 weeks at HSC. Well, it happened. And, after viewing The Secret, I was reminded of what Pastor Wilson always taught us – that which you meditate on will come to pass. Instead of my focus being on illness, it should have been on wellness. Mocha Mom Althea told me not to blame myself and I won’t. But I do recognize the power of the mind and the mouth. Friday, February 10th at 1 a.m. in the morning, I took Ayinde to the E.R. I didn’t wake my husband because I didn’t want to be talked out of it or told that I was overreacting. I did the right thing because my child was in respiratory distress and was diagnosed with pneumonia. I went from fear to panic to greatfull that I could take him to a hospital to get the help he needed. Because Ayinde was premature, his lungs were not strong enough to breathe AND fight pneumonia, a bacterial virus that attacks the lungs. So he needed the support the hospital could give him.